Context: I’ve been in love with Andra for the past 9 years, the problem is that we’re both women and she also has been diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder. Recently she told me that she has feelings for this Pieter guy that lives in a foreign country. Last night I had a dream that started with me at a running competition. I had to run 10 kilometers in circles around my parent’s bed. I was running and running, but it was never ending. After the competition ended, I found out that I actually ran 20 kilometers instead of 10. Then the dream suddenly changed and we were at a party (Me, Andra, Pieter and a close friend of mine, Theo). After some hours of partying, I went downstairs and found Andra in our room picking up her stuff, clearly wanting to go home. When I asked her what happened she told me “Pieter wouldn’t let me tell you that him and I are going to sleep together tonight, but I insisted that I should be the one telling you, so he got mad.” When I tried to say something in return, she pushed me on the bed and started kissing me. (It is worth mentioning that she often does this in real life too, as a form of manipulation). I told her to stay and that it’s fine if the 2 of them will sleep in the same bed. Then she went upstairs and I remained downstairs and started punching the punching bag, out of frustration and jealousy. After about one hour she came downstairs, hugged me and told me “I finally feel like I have a soul”. I hugged her back, kissed her on the cheek and told her “All I ever wanted for you is for you to be happy.” She then told me that she’s gonna move to Pieter’s home country.
This dream could be interpreted as your subconscious mind trying to work through your feelings of frustration, jealousy, and uncertainty in your current situation with Andra. The running competition could represent the constant effort you have put in to maintain your relationship with her despite the obstacles you face. The fact that you ended up running twice as much as expected could suggest that this effort is even more demanding than you originally thought. The party with Andra, Pieter, and your friend Theo could represent the internal conflict you feel about Andra's feelings for someone else. The fact that Andra pushes you down and kisses you could suggest that you feel that her affection towards you is not genuine and is instead a form of manipulation. Your punching of the punching bag could represent the frustration and anger you feel in response to this. Finally, Andra telling you she finally feels like she has a soul and that she will be moving to Pieter's home country could represent your fear of losing her to someone else. This dream may be a reflection of your subconscious mind trying to work through these feelings and find a way to come to terms with the situation.